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and then I doubt how we are ever going to make it to Canada.
And then all the what-if's fly through my head and keep me awake at night

I loose hope, I doubt and fear creeps into my veins.
Will the kids do okay, won't the oldest one (10 years) be to old to adjust, will we ever integrate, what if this is the biggest mistake we'll make in our lives, how do we know that this is right and on and on and on and on go the thoughts.
What if, after waiting for over two years, they won't give us a visa....how will we be able to pick up our lives here.....

And then there are times I can't imagine they will not let us go.
And that I'm absolutely sure we'll make it, to Canada, buy a business, make it a profitable one and live a life without many of the things we loath here, if we're lucky.
At least we'll work together, be our own boss, enjoy the space, nature and a less stressfull life (or at least a different kind of stress).

It's an emotional rollercoaster and it's up and down all the way, all the time.

Or maybe it's just "Weibliches Gemecker"

But what if you don't do it?

It is even a rollercoaster when you are here

But I think that all these ups and downs help you to become stronger in your decision to go. You need to have this to grow or to get a clear picture that the risk is to high.

It forms your commitment to do it...or to give it up.

Be happy that you feel this way, and also the future of your children is at stake. So why this should be an easy decision ?

Make your dreams come true ! Thats what live is all about

Mir gehen manchmal auch 1000 Gedanken durch den Kopf und ich könnte den ganzen Tag darüber nachdenken. Es gibt keinen Anfang und kein Ende.

Ich glaube aber wenn du erst einmal drüben bist, wird alles von selber gehen und du wirst wahrscheinlich gar keine Zeit zum Nachdenken haben. Alles wird gut.

@yeti: your posting could have been from me. I also have these sleepless nights, being upset, not knowing whether it is the right decision to give up everything or not, but I am sure that (still unknown) "doors" will open just then when you cut off everything. This is a kind of ambiguity, you risk a lot, so you can win (and also lose). But I don't believe that we will have the opportunity to win, if we decide to keep still, living our daily (secure?) familiar life. It depends on what you expect from life. I always try to imagine what might happen if we decided to stop our immigration procedure: It is a horrible feeling, it feels as if I had lost a lottery ticket....
Sounds soppy, doesn't it?

Zitat von Wendigo

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Mir gehen manchmal auch 1000 Gedanken durch den Kopf und ich könnte den ganzen Tag darüber nachdenken. Es gibt keinen Anfang und kein Ende.

Ich glaube aber wenn du erst einmal drüben bist, wird alles von selber gehen und du wirst wahrscheinlich gar keine Zeit zum Nachdenken haben. Alles wird gut.

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So schnell kann es sich ändern. Kopf hoch. Gestern habe ich meine Erwartungen zurückgeschraubt(dachte schon ich müsste mir wieder einen neuen Job in CH suchen) und heute habe ich schon Post von der kanadischen Botschaft gekriegt.

Ich sag's ja alles wird gut.

Thanks for all your answers

I do suppose things will turn out right in the end, it's just that we're waiting so long already......much much longer than we anticipated, that I sometimes loose hope.
For a little while.

It crawls under my skin now and then....I have to 'just' let it go for a bit and then I'm okay for a while again.
I never could get used to this kind of lifestyle, the uncertainty, kind of floating in mid-air, going nowhere.

Ah well....I'm kind of back again.
Ready for the last stretch of waiting.

And then the real fun begins

.... and there might be a friend in Canada who will give you a hand........

By the way yeti, talking about friends and the Netherlands.....and Germans...... and soccer.....
big event coming up. Are you a fan? Are you dutch at all? Covered the dutch team at the world cup 2006 and bought this wonderful team jersey of the Netherlands (oranje of course), and added a "van" to my name on the back.......

Guess I am off-topic now.

Jan

Zitat

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.... and there might be a friend in Canada who will give you a hand........

By the way yeti, talking about friends and the Netherlands.....and Germans...... and soccer.....
big event coming up. Are you a fan? Are you dutch at all? Covered the dutch team at the world cup 2006 and bought this wonderful team jersey of the Netherlands (oranje of course), and added a "van" to my name on the back.......

Guess I am off-topic now.

Jan

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I hear just oranje, Netherlands and so on. I have one question: Are there guys who can play soccer?????????? I didn't believe in. People which wears orange shirts is not allowed to come to Austria or Swiss.

Pezi

Hi yeti.

You think you´re running blind !
It´s makin´you crazy, dizzy, shaked up...

But put in some passion...
Put in some hope...
Give all the best you can...
Something-Somebody will give you luck...

...and it will work.

And if there comes a time of feeling homesick, look around in Canada...
...so many people I´ve seen must feel the same, because they are in the same situation.
And I truely believe, they´ll help you out.

Think about this :
At the end of the year, you must have stood up only one time more than you felt down !
And the only wrong decision you can try, is : not to decide !

Go for it !

hoxx

Hi!

@Jan
What's that with dutch.....german......and soccer.....forgot to add 1974

Yes, I am genuine dutch, although many generations back a female ancestor of mine supposedly eloped with a german soldier
Adventure is embedded in my dna

Well......what about football.
I watch it. Sometimes.
My garden isn't orange, but I know what offside is, so you might qualify me as a fan.
I'll watch a match when they creep up in the tournament.
Haven't got high hopes though.....

@Pezi



@Hoxx
Thanks!
I feel I'm loosing it sometimes and then I tumble down
But I'll get back up, just the same.
It's more like a temporary lapse now and then
Been through enough, takes an awfull strong man to get me down permanently.
I take my distance and get back up to speed again, like now

Anyhow: you rock.
I'm good now

NL 2:0 in Führung gegen Italien

Weiter so! NL wird den Einzug ins Finale schaffen!! Mich würd's freuen! Und Italien raus

@ yeti

Now it was time for me to tumble down.
Last week I´ve been in Mississauga / ON for
6 Interviews within my company.

5 times : GO !
1 time : I´ll take the other candidate.
And that was the one who had to decide for this special position.

On Monday evening I had to fly home, totaly
dizzy in my head, totaly angry, totaly disappointed...

Today I cleared up, I had a Mail wich sayes :
"don´t give up !" we´ll take you over as soon
as possible.

I think, I´m back on track !

Yours

hoxx

Hi Hoxx....

Yeah..life stinks now and then...tell me about it

You know the fun thing of tumblin down is that you allways seem to get back on your feet again , somehow(or maybe I've just had it easy that last 36 years of my life, although I doubt that...)

Keep your head and your spirit up...you'll get there in the end and then a whole new chapter begins.

Good luck on you!

Yeti